my first silver hair...

My first silver hair...
And i wondered why ...
Stress ? Nutritional deficiency ? Heredity ?
If i cant prevent it ..I'll henna it!

Constant headaches
a little breathlessness
a little overweight
a little knee pain
But the little pills
can set them all right!

Crows feet around my eyes
Try a little botox?
The fading world...
Progressive lenses of course!
Run diet yoga
Get a little younger


Tweeze the hair
Save the skin
Fight the change!
Live a little longer..

No oil   No fried foods
No sweets
Powdered jamun seeds
Karela and greens
Raw and nasty !

Yet one day..
I find I cannot  get up from my bed
The body is worn out..
I need somebody
To help me up
I live in fear
of being deserted...

Life has become a burden
But still I hope..
That tomorrow I'll get younger
I'll get better
Get up , walk  , cook ,
Play with my grandson, amuse him..!

Then I despair ..
Suddenly I smell death
Slowly but surely
its coming my way..
Fear and sadness
depress me.

What did I do wrong  that THIS is happening  ??

My first silver hair..
Did you try to tell me
'Its time to find Krishna
The dark mysterious one'

As I walk and
eat less with sugar free
I have to live longer
not to live longer...!
But to find that  Truth
That Light
To simply Be
Be happy
At peace !
: )